39 weeks

yep i'm still pregnant. apparently my OB is no longer worried about slinky being too big for a vag birth and we're just waiting for me to go into labor. which would be fine with me if i could fucking sleep at night. i have raging awful heartburn that the second i lay down gets intensified. i'm so sick of Tums it isn't even funny. i've always hated them and now i seriously hope after this kid is out i don't need another one for a LONG time.

i wasn't updating here in hopes that my next post would be my birth story but no such luck. so i'm sitting here at the computer at 4:39 am after i've just polished off some oreos and milk, completely exhausted but just too damn tired/annoyed to try and go back to sleep. so here i am writing completely incoherently about my 3rd tri woes.

i swore i'd never be this girl that bitched about being pregnant, but i'm just so over it. i want my little girl here. at least my nights would be occupied with taking care of her instead of getting up to pee every 45 minutes. and i'm so glad everyone else around me is tired of me being pregnant. yes because you're the one walking around with an almost (or probably over by now) 8lb baby pressing on your bladder. i forgot how uncomfortable that is for YOU.

i seriously want to hide in a box until i give birth. everyone is annoying me, i'm crying over everything (which i didn't do at all this entire time) i just want my body back, i want to be able to sleep on my fucking stomach! i want to burn the bottle of tums i just had to buy and most of all i just want my daughter. i want my outisde baby.

so with that i may try to go to sleep, or knit another hat that my kid will never wear.

oh and just for you, my ginormous 39wk belly